Today is National Coming Out Day....wheeeeeeeee!!!!

Most wonder how I came out....ok its the perfect day to do so...

I got two stories to share...

Story #1: Accidental Disclosure!

I was about 17 or 18, and I was visiting my sista mousette at her house. We have known each other since we were wee kiddies at our oral school, MOSD. We were having one of our blabfests as usual in her bedroom. I suddenly remember that I was expecting an email from a guy I was "seeing" at the time. I ask her to use her computer. I was yakking with her as I inadvertedly entered my password in the screenname field...it had the word "gay". Oh, my poor mousette! Her eyes opened wide open as she read it. I noticed her expression and I darted over to see my password in public letters. I just gasped in shock and she looked at me and said "Are you gay?" I was so freaking scared at the moment... I just bared myself naked to my favorite person, and I didnt really prep for this. All I did was nod very very slowly. She smiled and said "I kinda suspected you were. I dont care if you are gay. I still love you for who you are." She went to hug me, and I was about to faint, but I didnt. We talked about it and she felt better that she could talk about boys with me. She was the first person to know.

Story #2: Mother's Surprise

This story takes place roughly about 3 to 4 months after the first story. I went out to summer camp. I told Mom that she was not to clean my bedroom or arrange anything in there while I was out to camp. She nodded at my request. Ok, I was enjoying camp at the midpoint of the session when my own mother picked the lock and decided to clean my bedroom. In the process, she found several things that a man should not have. She couldnt believe it and spent the entire night crying on my bed. The following day, she called the camp and requested that I leave the camp due to a family emergency. So I fly back home and my mom was very different. We rode home in total silence...people who know my mother will agree with me this would be a very eerie experience to go through with her. I asked her what is going on? she refused to say anything. When we get home, I see my stuff laid out on the bar. I get very angry and I looked at her and said "How dare you invade my privacy and put my personal stuff out for everyone in the family to see?!" She calmly sat down and said, "Son, Dan and Danny is on their father-son trip so Im the only one that has seen this unnatural stuff." I gather my stuff up and run back in the room, and slammed the bedroom door. I get even more angrier and literally trash up my bedroom. My mom calmly open the door and begin cleaning up the mess while she cries silently. I said "Well..you think Im unnatural then?!" She looks up at me and says: "No, baby...I knew you are different from us, but i just think the stuff you have is unnatural. Do you even like girls?" I said "I have tried to like and love girls, but my love for girls are strictly platonic. I just like boys, which happens to feel more natural to me." She nodded and said "Are you sure about this? Maybe you are just confused since the girls you have been with arent exactly the right ones." I shake my head and said "No, mom...I have done it with girls..they arent too bad, but I feel empty when i do it with them. I like it even more when I do it with guys. I am seeing a guy right now if you are even wondering." She looks half surprised and half shocked at that. We dont talk for a couple hours, then Mom just comes up to me and hugs me, then saying: "This will be difficult for me, but I want you to know that I will always love you no matter what or who you want to be." After this point, Mom and I became close...we werent that close at all before this episode.

That's all I have to share..I have many more, but these are my favorites.

I was planning to go out and have some fun....Ok, I close the front door and reach for the keys to open the gate door to only find out that I unintentionally left my keys in the house.. ..I cursed myself for doing this and I was pretty much helpless trying to dropkick the front door open since I have an extremely small space to do so. 3 of my housemates are gone to NYC, and the other 2 was MIA all day so I was stuck there for a hour and half, feeling like an incredibly angry caged wolf in a cage that PETA wouldnt have approved of... When my other housemates finally showed up and asked for help. So they gave me a hammer and a screwdriver to open the front door since they live in the basement, not in the main house. I spent some time trying to convince the door slider to move back to open so destruction would be avoided....Alas, that didnt work.......I got in a rage from the frustation and the hunger and whacked the doorknob so hard with a hammer that it just broke apart in several pieces and forced the inner part of the knob out of the hole so I could get back in the house...... I got the keys and made the basement housemates stay guard while I got a replacement knob at Home Depot...

When I returned, I found that the housemates returned and got another car because one of our friends car broke down on I-495. They had to get a rental car instead and they saw the knobless front door and they thought that they got robbed agian...Once they saw me, they knew it was me and rushed to get on their trip so they wouldnt face my wrath...I was still seething at this point and fixed up the damn door. I am venting online before I go out with a good friend of mine so I wont be so bitchy and ruin our time...

There....I feel better.....

Ehhh....

Its Friday....ummm......yay? I got the house to myself for the weekend. Masa, Lee, and Emerson just left for NYC for Deaf Expo with David Fontes and Russell. Hope they get a fun filled weekend up there! As for me, I dunno what are my plans...

I guess I would simply go with the flow and enjoy whatever happens to me over the weekend. Sounds like Im bummed? Yeah, I do...cant afford to go to NYC...but its for the best if I dont go since Im currently in a tight spot at the time being.

Guess Ill hit a bar tonight and celebrate going solo for awhile...

Currently Watching Resident Evil - Apocalypse By Milla Jovovich, Sienna Guillory, Oded Fehr see related

Saw Resident Evil 2. It was pretty good, but not too fabulous. I think this movie did a lot better storywise in parallel of the game than the first Resident Evil movie. There were several mistakes in the movie, but i think the people used "filler" stuff from other games of the same genre to make it...."interesting"...

at least they got Jill Valentine from RE1 and RE3 in the movie. I dont think they used Jill that much. Alice is interesting, but i think they should have balanced the movie between Jill, Alice, and Carlos more evenly. The movie was more like 80 percent Alice, 15 percent Jill, and 5 percent Carlos. Angie is the substitute for Sherry from RE2.

My opinions:

plot - 7 out of 10
cast - 7 out of 10
Special effects - 8 out of 10
scare factor: 4 out of 10
resemblence to the game series: 4 out of 10

The ending is quite open ended so there will be a RE3 movie if the movie does pretty good in the theatres. Good Luck to those who made the movie.

Apex was really fun last night! I met new people from Gally...Let me say these people are a very interesting crop of gay folks. I decided to dance more than talk, and I had a better time since once I got to dancing, i noticed my energy level went up and I enjoyed a natural high of endophorins, unlike the others around me who were using a chemical high to help them to have fun.

Towards the end, I witnessed a straight girl/girl fight. They just went into a catfight in the middle of the dance floor and it really put a stop to everyone's good time while everyone was looking at them straight bitches pulling each other's hair and slapping each other senseless. I rolled my eyes at them and I made my depature.. I was like "wha'eva!"       I walked to Soho and I found my dance buddy Chuck there, and I was like " 'Xcuse me? how the fuck did you get here before me?!" He grinned and said, "I left right before the fight." I was like "Bitch...that is rude!" He chuckled at me and I rolled my eyes at him.

So, it was a great night! Cliff had so much fun that he even lost his shirt....and he was lucky that Chuck and I were still around when he suddenly appeared on the sidewalk at 315 am or he would have taken a cab home shirtless! When I asked him where is his shirt?, he said I lost it and I dont know what the hell happened to it since he was supposed to meet a friend.. I was like laughing my head off.....hugs to sweet Cliffie!